After reading “Radio Silence”, I decided to pick up (FINALLY) Eliza & her monsters; book I had been wanting to read for atleast a year and received for christmas from Alex ❤︎
5 / 5 stars = !!!
** Trigger warning; Mental health, Suicide, Suicide thoughts/idealisation
I related to Eliza right away, as I always felt like the “outsider” at school growing up. Though I certainly wasn’t a popular person on the internet; but it got me kind of fantasying of the “what if” my blog would be as popular and loved as Monstrous Sea. The book just wrapped me whole and I felt so cosy reading it.
What I thought was interresting with Wallace, was that he choosed to be mute and only speak when alone with someone or with his friends; something we rarely see in novels, atleast in my knowledge. I really grown to love the Eliza & Wallace friendship dynamic !
I recognized some anxiety traits in Eliza, one of them being the irritability. While yes, her parents were good parents and were trying; I really feel where Eliza’s furry is coming from, I’ve snapped at my own mom way too often.. Not because we necessary wanted to, but because anxiety make us irritable and the fact nobody can really understand how we feel is enough to get is angry. At times, even, it’s like we are unable to control it.
When the fatidic moment came, the book ripped my heart in two.. i felt an immense sadness for the damage it made, and just like it had been MY life on the line and my big secret revealed. I like how the book illustrate how a panic attack feels, and from that moment, Eliza’s action is typical of a depressed person. I’ve always been an only child, so there’s this sibling thing I cannot understand very well; but at this moment, Sully & Church is a good exemple of how siblings should act with each other.
From the appearences, Wallace can totally look like the selfish one at one moment; when really, he’s trying to help Eliza. When one has depression, like when her identity has been outted, you don’t feel the want to do anything- just like one may wanna isolate themselves from the world. And that just isn’t good. Though yes, there’s something in for him too – i’d agree, Eliza cannot just erase all of that and continue doing nothing. Specially how she, herself, felt the anger when Children of Hypnos finished without ending – and all the rumors and bad stuff about the author came to light.
Most of all, I love how the author made getting help okay; both Eliza & Wallace reached for help. And everything falled okay in the end, even after Eliza got into a very dark place.
«(…) Ive always wondered what it would be like to be the person whose color comes through even when standing still. To be so vibrant, others can’t help but notice you.»